for letting my emotions cloud what would be better judgement, for not trying harder and holding on tighter to us, for not thinking through your perspective and understanding the circumstance, for pulling you back and forth, and taking the chances you’ve given me for granted, for pushing my understanding to you and your way of life, for thinking that there is only black and white between our decisions, for convincing you to settle on something that isn’t what you planned for, for not watching out for you and your well being better, for not giving us a chance when you gave us two, for failing on my promise to myself to think rationally, for the trouble that I have caused between your parents, for being selfish when I could’ve loved you selflessly.
You are the only one that I’ve ever truly loved with the small amount of maturity I have developed, and the only one that I know who loved me more then yourself. I see that. You are there in all the music that moves my heart, and the movies that tears up my eyes. As much as I’d like to turn back time, I can’t ask for more. As you move on, I only hope you find someone who can provide you all that I cannot. I’m not perfect, and at times stubborn and naive, but what I feel for you, will never be forgotten.
I love you, and always will. but you deserve the best.